i am vvv sad now:( sad and discouraged. i think this is the first sad post on this blog ever. :'( and then i just tell myself no need to study cos my health is more impt but that's not entirely true in singapore's society is it! they tell us to succeed in life we must excel in school and obviously that's not true cos not all the shit in sch we'll use in life and honestly who needs to memorise fucking formulas with GOOGLE AVAILABLE EVERYWHERE?! OR EVEN A BOOK. when you grow up, why would you ever want to memorise all the stupid formulas?

my dad certainly doesn't and i think he's v successful cos he pursued his passion for his career and he doesn't get pissed at his job. he might get pissed at PEOPLE he works with but never at his job. he has achieved almost the perfect equilibrium between $$ and passion i think i mean he's definitely got all his basic needs covered and he has purchasing power right AND he loves what he does. when he works, to him it's fun. for him it is fun to try and derive a formula from all the data he collects and when he finally succeeds he gets vvv excited and tries to share it with me even though i obv won't understand. and he is one of the most "prolific" in his career- his own words. but then not everyone is that lucky right to be able to find a job where $=passion

and an article i read said smth like "shit learnt in sch is useless in life" but even if we agree with that, we still cannot flunk sch right cos if you do badly all the doors just shut and then what happens? are you stuck? will you go on? do you follow your passion or take a night class so that you'll be academically adequate to hold a job you have no interest in that puts food on your table? will anyone employ you!?!?!? how would anyone dare to have so many unanswered questions define their future? i really hope that when i grow up i'll be able to answer this question and then tell my kids or any child i come into contact with whether passion > $ or not.