just spent last two hours doing 4 long overdue french compos and this year i really wanna study and put in effort and do really really well but i can't put myself to it! i mean if i spend an hour a day for each subject doing the stupid homework and revising wtv the teacher has gone through during the day well then that's like 9 hours gone?! and we only have 24 hours in a day right so then if i spend 9 hours studying and 6 hours in school and then cca is like another 3 hours and say 6 hours of sleep (at night) in between all the other shit i have to do WHERE IS THE REST AND RELAXATION?! OR THE TIME TO HAVE A LIFE?! OR EVEN EAT ACTUALLY :'( :'(
i am vvv sad now:( sad and discouraged. i think this is the first sad post on this blog ever. :'( and then i just tell myself no need to study cos my health is more impt but that's not entirely true in singapore's society is it! they tell us to succeed in life we must excel in school and obviously that's not true cos not all the shit in sch we'll use in life and honestly who needs to memorise fucking formulas with GOOGLE AVAILABLE EVERYWHERE?! OR EVEN A BOOK. when you grow up, why would you ever want to memorise all the stupid formulas?
my dad certainly doesn't and i think he's v successful cos he pursued his passion for his career and he doesn't get pissed at his job. he might get pissed at PEOPLE he works with but never at his job. he has achieved almost the perfect equilibrium between $$ and passion i think i mean he's definitely got all his basic needs covered and he has purchasing power right AND he loves what he does. when he works, to him it's fun. for him it is fun to try and derive a formula from all the data he collects and when he finally succeeds he gets vvv excited and tries to share it with me even though i obv won't understand. and he is one of the most "prolific" in his career- his own words. but then not everyone is that lucky right to be able to find a job where $=passion
and an article i read said smth like "shit learnt in sch is useless in life" but even if we agree with that, we still cannot flunk sch right cos if you do badly all the doors just shut and then what happens? are you stuck? will you go on? do you follow your passion or take a night class so that you'll be academically adequate to hold a job you have no interest in that puts food on your table? will anyone employ you!?!?!? how would anyone dare to have so many unanswered questions define their future? i really hope that when i grow up i'll be able to answer this question and then tell my kids or any child i come into contact with whether passion > $ or not.
22:34
Saturday, January 22, 2011
What better way to break the post hiatus than with Europe+SWEETSIXTEENAWESOMENESS!
europe was vvv fun(: and vvv hot(guys) and vvv cold snow:) got a lot of stuff! i miss italy so much:(:( and france. am v encouraged to start studying v hard so that i can go live in france and visit italy over the weekend:) Eiffel tower was so cool! and i cracked my knee at arc de triomphe. how many ppl can say that?:)
and for my bday! I'M SIXTEEN NOW WITH WONDERFUL FRIENDS:)
on my birthday, monday, my friends had a "surprise" birthday party that i insisted they hold for me! and i knew about but i kept on pretending like i didn't:) went to KAP (aww RGP days) with chegoh man ro mayo awa bellpoo and phen! and i got blindfolded up the stairs to the second floor of KAP and they made me a cake out of a burger and fries and chicken wing!! it was wonderful! but that wasn't the best part!!!! it was actually a diversion! to make me think that that was it BUT! my real surprise bday party was on wednesday:)
on wed wanqihuifen&crapps brought me out for a birthday meal and a movie! gulliver's travels v funny i love marshall! after the movie, val smsed me saying that she's sorry that she couldn't make it and i suspected something was going on! and then before we got to my house, my mom sent me an sms about going to the function room to get the camera my dad left there and I KNEW!! but i pretended not to cos honestly how awkward would it be if there really wasn't anything going on but i insisted i knew about it? so then there they all were in my function room! and i got sixteen presents:)
i had to
1)make a short poem for everyone
2)win the ten cent coin game
3)not die in murderer
4)win the electricity game(??) the one where you squeeze hands to get it to someone
5)tell jokes
to get my presents! which were wonderful:) and we got to eat cake! and we got to have fun! and eat:) and the room was decorated! and i got an awesome card and hat(: it was all vvvvvvvvvvvvvvvvv fun!
so now i'm officially sixteen and rockin it! I'm a grown up now:S and i'm also legally allowed to have sex (a lot of ppl see the need to point this out to me but i dunno why:) ) can't wait for all you guys to turn sixteen then we can go watch nc16 movies tgt finally!
to amanda cherylg cherylp charmaine christabella christina crystal huifen jaslin kimberly maehanyi roanna stephanie wanqi wanran & everyone who wished me a happy birthday, THANK YOU LOVELOVE(:
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lol woke up at 2 ytd:( sorry charmu i love you i owe you spinach tortelli!! and the nicest part was she called my house and told my sis to wake me up -heart- and so i made it in time for movie with ningxin!!:)
i think we pigs should start an owing program where we owe each other stand-ups! like now chegoh owes me one standup(cos she overslept for yfc meeting) and i owe charmu a standup(cos i overslept for lunch meeting) and no one can get angry at each other because we are pigs! and EAT AND SLEEP is our motto. and so when we sleep too much, we pigs understand each other. maybe i shouldn't call us pigs. self fufiling prophecy and such but it's true! we're proud to be! not really but we do love food(:
today was a food day(: dad got me up around 12 and we went out to eat: din tai feng, toast box and hagendaz. loved it! haven't gone out with him in vvvvv long like since primary school!
my geog fa is screwed. especially my ending. it went something like: in conclusion, economical factors are more important because in the end, environment doesn't pay for the construction of coastal protection schemes- money does. lol wtf right!! just hope she doesn't fail me for it:(
anyways got the first two volunteers for yfc! roanna and amandah LOVE LOVE LOVEEEE
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yay blog time. iml it's not like i'm going to sleep anytime soon right? tmrw movie with ningxin again!! heart furry vengeance. and omg robinhood last week with nx was fun too!! hahahahah went out for movie after yfc concert discussion with hergroup+mrlim.
had youth sports conference 2010 25-27 may v fun!! with christinal charmu and amandah heart well the first two days were okay but the last day vvv fun! made new friends during horseriding and at the end of the day camwhoring with charmu heart then charmu left for... china/hk and well maybe africa eh?
oh and on... thursday i had sushi buffet with chegoh at suki sushi(cine) LUUUUUUUURVEEEEEE OMG we had: inari sushi, softshellcrabroll, 2 bowls of fried tofu (in that delicious sauce), egg sushi, 4 plates of mussels with codroe, corn sushi, crab sushi, 5 plates of salmon sashimi, prawn, fried prawn, 4 bowls of the soup with the fire below, tempura loaf, gyoza, cha soba, fried tofu, lol. good times good times(: ARGHHH I AM MISSING THE MUSCLES N CODROE. MY FAVOURITE SHELLFISH EVER IS MUSSEL I WILL EAT THAT HOWEVER IT IS COOKED I MEAN IT!!! :( I WANT SUSHI BUFFET AGAINNNN:( but then i had steamboat buffet with my family just ytd for father's day.
charmu and i pigging out before i go meet nx tmrw:( do you see how my sad life revolves around food:( oh and i'd like to point out the past 3 trainings i've been late NOT COS I WANT TO BE but cos i overslept:( i think the earliest i've been to training is... one hour late? yes. so now my life revolves around sleep+food. and the sad thing is i cannot say anything against that:(
met ken the other day with chegoh. lol his place v cool! with this v cool laser printer!!! ahgong ahma looked a bit poor quality but i guess once under a plastic sheet it'll look okay but other than that the badges look v cool! V COOL.
YFC!!! youth for causes!! please help:( if any passer by passes by and reads this EMAIL: SHELL4YFC@HOTMAIL.COM to sign up for street sales! WE WILL GIVE YOU CIP HOURS! you just go around singapore (anywhere you want) and sell badges, magnets etc. first street sale is this coming friday, 11 june!! PLEASE SIGN UP!! PEACE!!
lol speaking of yfc, went to chegoh's house last monday to try and do the plaques ended up watching movies, going to hougang mall (and getting an overflowing slurpee on the way cos there weren't any covers AND THERE WAS NO WAY WE WEREN'T GETTING OUR MONEY'S WORTH:@) and partying with A LOT OF FOOD bought by me at the bus interchange:( i couldn't resist I'M A PIG OKAY?!
good times good times. HAVING BBQ SOON!!! v excited! CHICKEN WINGS FROM DADDY'S FRIEND!!
PS: (lol chegoh,charmu do you see that? proper usage) ARGH I HATE THE HOLIDAYS LIKE I REMEMBER THE HOLIDAYS IN PRIMARY SCHOOL YOU KNOW WHAT I DID?! I ATE AND SLEPT AND ATE AND SLEPT AND READ AND ATE AND SLEPT HAPPILY YEAH. REPEAT THAT PATTERN FOR THE ENTIRE 30 DAYS IN THAT HOLIDAY. NOW WHEN I EAT AND SLEEP AND EAT AND SLEEP AND READ AND EAT AND SLEEP I FEEL GUILTY COS OF THE FUCKING PILE OF WORK IN MY FILE THAT I HAVEN'T LOOKED THROUGH THAT I HAVE TO DO BY THE END OF THE HOLIDAYS. argh.
lol and using fuck up there reminds me of how amandah and charmu have adjusted their speaking habits so that when i swear their volume increases to drown me out i appreciate it(: but i think mrs wee still heard:$ i'm sorry:(
02:03
adventure in bukit panjang yesterday with charmu and chegoh. it was my fault BUT I FORGOT WE WERE ON 190!!! :( and once we missed that stop, we just go on a highway AND NEVER STOP. butbut we got off and took the senja LRT to choa chu kang lot 1!! FOOD PARTY! the fried mushrooms there is much better than that at bishan!! it's like crispy outside(cos fried) and then juicy inside?! FUCKING NICE. but the chippy's beerbatteredfish not as nice as the one at fareast:( hoboed about eating. v nice time. IT WAS AN ADVENTURE AND I LIKED IT. even though it took me like half an hour to get home and chegoh slightly longer :$ BUT I TREAT THEM EACH TO 3 BUCKS WORTH OF FOOD I AM ABSOLVED OF ALL GUILT!!
today i was under the impression i had french in the afternoon but then she sent an email saying no replacement class so i just went out cos i didn't have pe attire anyways. so went to plaza sing (in 190 again lol i was damn scared we'd reach senjar again but was in different direction) with chegoh. then we decided to go her house party with food!! i love our houses!!!! FOOD PARTY ALL THE TIME! lazed about in her house with food+tv+food+food+couch+food+music+food. AND I DID HOMEWORK HOW PRO AM I?! she just lazed about reading a book. i was surprised too(: but i forced her to borrow the book ytd after all at lot 1. reached home at like 10:( daddy fetched me(:
OH. my dad he's like GETTING BLIND WITH AGE OR SOMETHING. we order groceries online and he bought 20 sets of 10 packs of those small packets of tissue(3ply worh i like) COS HE THOUGHT IT WAS A JUMBO SIZED TISSUE BOX. and last time his finger jerked without his knowledge or something and he bought 11 packs of those shoe whiteners?! (3 in each pack i think)
argh next 3saturdays not free WHERE HAVE ALL MY SLEEP IN DAYS GONEEE:(
22:20
i sleepy but chegoh won't leave:@
18:07
have nothing better to do so second post!
just remembered had therapy session with chegoh on thursday where we just wrote fuck over and over again on a page until we couldn't see individual words then repeated on another page. THEN. we designed the old ppl. it's good stress relief! really! and we definitely needed stress relief.
should stop procrastinating.
i did my french dossier8 tache finale last night! was v proud of myself cos i finished math summary also and all before 1 am but then i didn't go to school today:( wasted efforts.
need to print out my mc four times! i feel impt(: i am such a loser. but this reminds me of my dad! when he was in england, cos he only wrote letters to like ppl in singapore so then he got letters maybe once a week? cos letters to/from england v ex and it's in pounds somemore. so he signed up for random credit cards so that he would get letters! HAHAHAHAH. i get my laziness from him.
i got mc for pft this friday. and for training the whole week. i love my doctor. but need to go training soon. argh. and need letter from my dad saying i can't do pft:(
i wanna be pro in chinese then do pro chinese emo post. i don't think that's happening anytime soon but i can hope right? wish? ooh. i know this in french. souhaite. is it? chinese reminds me of last time when i was in primary. then we'd have karaoke parties sometimes with friends sometimes alone but like every sunday/sat without fail. v fun. and my mom always sang this chinese song. don't remember the name or tune. but i used to be good at chinese. like 80 was counted bad. NOW A FREAKING 4.0 IS WELCOME!!
must do chinese assessments!!!! oh who am i kidding. will watch chinese news... no. will watch ch8 dramas. ooh. i remember planning this with someone. like one week, put one layer of tape over the english subtitles then can still see a bit. then second week put second layer of tape over subtitles then can see a bit less. third week add another layer and so on. then in the end we watch without reading subtitles! but i do that alr(: i pro(: except when i'm lost:(
will make tmrw count. will not sleep whole day like today. wake up 6. sleep 6.02. wake up 10.11 sleep 10.14. wake up 2.10 eat lunch sleep 2.56. wake up 4.20 see doctor sleep 5. wake up 8.30 feel better:)
can't wait for friday to come.
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