i had an interesting debate about tyra banks with vanessa. tyra has a lot of impact in the media industry don't you think?
i like her shows. the few times i watched it, it was interesting. yeah. so...
yesterday i told felicia that i'd try to wake up early to play boombang with her. but then... i didn't. as in... i didn't wake up early. not that i didn't try. haiz. i forgot to set the alarm... and no one bothered to wake me up cos... i dun usually want people to wake me up... and if they did i'd be in a bad temper all day. so there.
she said nevermind. but i do. i feel so bad. haiz. and i had a nightmare last night. it was scary. i can't remember what it was about.... but the feeling... when i woke up... it was nothing but a distant memory... but that feeling... that feeling of... dread... and... pain... and... the feeling of... emptiness was still there. it was so very scary.
i don't like nightmares. furthermore, usually when i have them... i forget about them by the time i wake up... except for this ONE dream... that kept repeating over and over again... every single night... it was when i was about... kindergarden... maybe younger. i was so absolutely terrified. i think i was lost... on this stretch of road. where all the shops looked familiar. but for some reason, i couldn't find my way back to my house.
now i know. the shop. it is the barber's shop. opposite my grandmother's house. everytime i pass it, i remember the dream... and that feeling creeps over me again... and its always there.... in the shadows... waiting for me... and when i'm not ready, it'll come... and catch me unawares....
right. so. i think i'll write a ghost story... i can't being myself to write a soppy love story. for some reason or another.
well then. ellen's and oprah's shows are rather interesting too!:D
i still believe that people should believe in magic.
i dunno why.
i think it'll help to believe in magic.
they should also embrace their inner child.
the world would be so much more fun...
if everyone had fun while working
wouldn't you say?
well then...
if magic really exsisted,
how would one do it?
there are so many stories out there about magic.
which version is true?
or is magic a whole other thing?
maybe its truth...
or innocence...
what about...
love.
maybe...
maybe not.
the technicoloured jellyfish?
they are not here anymore...
sometimes.
i think that i should stop this.
people probably think i'm crazy.
lols.
anythingg.
i like writing about random stuff.
and i think...
that this will affect us all.
-HOPEwillNOTworkANYMORE-
Labels: conversations, felicia, magic, random, sadness, technicolouredjellyfish, vanessa, ztdhooohsifs
18:07
Wednesday, December 5, 2007
well. i am on the phone with alethea, felicia and cheryl right now. her parents just asked who we were, cos we were on speaker. it was scary.
today... i read five books of fruits basket...
felicia got me addicted to boombang. then, boombang was suddenly disconnected... sniff. i have three rooms :D
i made new friends. blommy, varn123, Habbzo1 and kaystar. i married varn123 and blommy. blommy's wedding vow was so SWEET. awww. varn123's was short.
haiz. i'm bored.
-ARRON YAN IS SO HOT-
haiz. soooooo hot. :D.
brandon joined the conversation after a while. haiz.
cheryl is talking to her xiamen friends and ignoring us most of the time... haiz. so very hurt.
alethea has a new blogskin. its jay chou. ah well. its quite obvious that if she changes her blogskin, she'd change it to JAY CHOU. right? frankly, if it were my choice, i would choose either feilunhai, arron yan, jj lin or wangleehom.
wheeeeeeeeeee~ i've been abstaining from solitaire. good.
cheryl disappears everytime we want to tell her something.
i want someone to stay up with me.
i'm bored at night.
sniff.
no one stays up with me.
sometimes...
i wish someone would stay up with me.
but then...
sometimes....
i think its nicer...
if i'm alone...
and sometimes...
people believing in magic...
it helps a lot...
when you're in very...
very...
very...
deep trouble...
and don't know how...
to stop it from continuing...
and yet sometimes....
if people believe...
in magic....
too much...
then...
when they find out....
that it doesn't really...
really....
help...
the pain...
its so much more...
so much more...
intense...
so much more...
pain...
then if it would be....
if they just gave up...
in the beginning...
so sometimes...
people should not...
believe in magic...
if only to prevent...
themselves...
from feeling...
even more pain...
than they're already...
feeling...
-I AM HURT-
Labels: alethea, brandon, cheryl, chicken, conversations, crapps, driftbud, felicia, magic, random, sadness
22:51
Tuesday, December 4, 2007
right. so... yesterday night, felicia and i had a rather interesting conversation. i decided that i needed to improve my chinese if i'm too survive school next year. therefore, i made felicia converse with me in chinese. yes. in chinese. and only chinese. doubtless, it made a very funny conversation since i have absolutely no idea how to say half the things i can say in english.
it worked for a while. we talked about 雄哥's cooking... and how she probably pulled the insides of squirrels out herself. and when i said squirrel in english, felicia thought i said jiro. and so, i took the opportunity to describe in detail how 雄哥 would gut jiro and serve him to 盟主 (炎亚纶）who loves her cooking. when they showed a close up of 雄哥's cooking in 终极一家，i thought it looked rather... unique. i will not say bad things about things that 炎亚纶 likes.
because of that, we fought for a while... and ignored each other on the phone while typing away furiously in msn trying to blame each other. in the end, (i have a sudden urge to say "only kindness matters"... blame it on jewel) we decided it was neither's fault. the fault lay on... jiro, the squirrel and 雄哥. all we had to do was apply a little of our own philosophy on this... problem.
after a while, chickenAKAbrandon, joined the conversation. and now, thanks to him, i am DUCK. felicia is FLAMINGO. which is what celeste has been calling her all along. i guess she was right, after all.
it was a rather interesting conversation with chicken. he was rather vocal. thereby screaming a lot. but i still think it went rather well.
according to felicia, her mom bought brandon a chicken bedsheet today thanks to her. apparently, there weren't any bedsheets with flamingo and/or duck prints. people these days do NOT know how to appreciate flamingoes and ducks. i prefer the old days. when they actually took the trouble to breed us. now, they just make us in labs... at least... i think they do... do they? no? ah well. they still don't appriciate us. i mean... you see chicken printed bedsheets everywhere. but do you see flamingo and/or duck printed bedsheets? i sure don't. maybe i just shop in the wrong place. blech.
oh yes. i just remembered. towards the end of our conversation, i kept on calling brandon "dear". it freaked him out. good.
gillian still hasn't come online. she owes me a tag. hmph. she can't find the tagboard, she says.
i just realised that isabel's blog really is stagnant. that's too bad. :(
but justina's isn't :D
i'm bored still.
someone stay up with me.
i feel lonely at night.
no one online...
except the jellyfish that sometimes come out and play with me...
they are technicoloured.
i'm still lonely at night.
those are fragments of my imagination.
to replace the people that aren't there.
at least...
i think they are.
:(
-youLEFTmeWITHOUTanotherWORD-
Labels: brandon, chicken, chij, conversations, felicia, pranks, random, technicolouredjellyfish, ztdhooohsifs
18:58
Thursday, November 29, 2007
well... i decided that since i didn't have anything better to do, i'd post the interesting conversation with felicia here.
Felicia says:
OOOH~ ssss
Felicia says:
xD
go away. says:
:D
Felicia says:
lols
go away. says:
:D
go away. says:
:A
Felicia says:
:A ?
go away. says:
it looks like a duck.
Felicia says:
in what sense?
go away. says:
the tip of a is the tip of the beak...
Felicia says:
oh
go away. says:
see it?
Felicia says:
looks like a rat to me
Felicia says:
xD
go away. says:
horror*
go away. says:
what sense?
Felicia says:
:A
Felicia says:
same way
Felicia says:
but i dont see it as a duck
go away. says:
i dun see it as a rat...
go away. says:
:(
go away. says:
opposites attract?
Felicia says:
i don't see a duck. =(
Felicia says:
YEAH
go away. says:
then...
go away. says:
ztdhfs
Felicia says:
ehh
Felicia says:
we should create one for opposite attract
Felicia says:
OA~
Felicia says:
lols
go away. says:
opa.
go away. says:
:D
Felicia says:
opa?
go away. says:
OPposites Attracts
Felicia says:
ahh~
Felicia says:
okay then!
Felicia says:
OPA shall be it!
go away. says:
yay!
Felicia says:
but you see... ztdhfs got oooh~ sss
Felicia says:
OPA dont have
go away. says:
ssssssi ooooh
go away. says:
:)
Felicia says:
ehh
go away. says:
lols
Felicia says:
think of another one
Felicia says:
xD
go away. says:
issssssss hooooo?
Felicia says:
LOLS
Felicia says:
sound like owl
go away. says:
AHAHAHAHAH
Felicia says:
are you laughing? or screaming?
go away. says:
screaming in laughter.
go away. says:
:D
Felicia says:
lols
go away. says:
:D
go away. says:
i am going to post this conversation on my blog
go away. says:
IT IS VERY NICE
for those of you who have not yet made the conclusion, i am "go away." and felicia is "Felicia"
so... which sound sounds the best? :D
Labels: conversations, felicia, random, ztdhooohsifs
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